Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Monday, October 3, 2011
Once you decided , sorry I cried.
Hi, how are you?
Of course this is not spyware that occur in Facebook.
I don’t know why, I wanted to ask you even though I know you will answer me with a pleasure word.
First of October, 1/10.
How’s your birthday?
Do you had a great time with your friends?
I guess you did.
Anyway ,happy belated birthday again.
回到过去 .
你还记得我在那个时候做过了啥事吗?
本来想为你献出我LIVE的生日歌 .
不过你还是拒绝了.
今年，不一样的feel,不一样的情景.
在也不是和以前一样。
时时刻刻在你身旁.
今年， 我想为你制作特别的东西.
不过这只是本来.
我也知道，我不能这么做.
我们的开始, 其实只是我一个人的开始.
我也不肯定在什么时候。
我就在和你谈话之间，摩擦出了一个不可思议的感觉.
我感觉和你在一起的感觉，很舒服，很独特.
在我的思念，也只是填上了你的姓名.
直到现在也不变.
在这个时刻，我也只能对幸福说着痛.
可能是我穿不起这 牌子.
来玩文字游戏.
ABCDEFGH IJKLMNOP QRSTUVWXY
你猜得出我要说什么吗?
不过，
你肯定了，我就哭了。
你开心，我也为你献上真诚的笑容. =D <3
Once you decided , sorry I cried.
Hi, how are you?
Of course this is not spyware that occur in Facebook.
I don’t know why, I wanted to ask you even though I know you will answer me with a pleasure word.
First of October, 1/10.
How’s your birthday?
Do you had a great time with your friends?
I guess you did.
Anyway ,happy belated birthday again.
回到过去 .
你还记得我在那个时候做过了啥事吗?
本来想为你献出我LIVE的生日歌 .
不过你还是拒绝了.
今年，不一样的feel,不一样的情景.
在也不是和以前一样。
时时刻刻在你身旁.
今年， 我想为你制作特别的东西.
不过这只是本来.
我也知道，我不能这么做.
我们的开始, 其实只是我一个人的开始.
我也不肯定在什么时候。
我就在和你谈话之间，摩擦出了一个不可思议的感觉.
我感觉和你在一起的感觉，很舒服，很独特.
在我的思念，也只是填上了你的姓名.
直到现在也不变.
在这个时刻，我也只能对幸福说着痛.
可能是我穿不起这 牌子.
来玩文字游戏.
ABCDEFGH IJKLMNOP QRSTUVWXY
你猜得出我要说什么吗?
不过，
你肯定了，我就哭了。
你开心，我也为你献上真诚的笑容. =D <3
Saturday, July 16, 2011
我的手机 ，全都是你.
当我下定决心,
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
在我的电话解锁，
然后在进入信箱，
再慢慢地把一封，
再一封地按删除,
其实我已经知道，
我是个输者，认输者.
今天第26天，我没信息你，
尝试完完全全在你的生活中消失.
因为那份责任,
已不是我的了.
依旧留着你的笑容, 哭过却无法掩埋歉疚. =')
一个人的时候 在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know 地球另一端有你陪我
谢谢你鼓励我 勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know 你是我的OK绷 在每一个时候
这感觉已经不对 , 我努力再挽回。='D
你的温柔像羽毛, 你的微笑像拥抱.
多想藏着你的好 , 只有我看得到.
坚持学单纯的小孩，静静看守着份爱.
Let's start from June 24 at 6:31pm*
I am sorry that I don't have guts to press enter.
I am sorry that I don't have guts to press enter.
This is because , I have a question.
That I wanna ask you for a long time.
But I not dare.
To let you know.
As I say , this is blog.
I can say anything I want.
So now , I wanna ask you.
Since I have chance.
Since we know each other for long time ,
Do you have even 1% of me entered to your heart?
If you don't know what I mean.
简单来说．
我和你，你有没有１八仙喜欢过我?
I don't care about your answer.
I only care that why I could't ask you on that time.
Damn myself.
Why I am a nuts ?!
Sorry , my heart dropped tears. ='(
我放手 假洒脱、谁懂我多么不舍 :')
这感觉已经不对 , 我努力再挽回。='D
I knew that must be nothing happened , but I keep myself slience.
Sorry I really need to do so.
Please don't blame on me.
Please don't blame on me.
I went to privacy setting , I classified you and your gang as privacy setting,
So that you all can't see all my status , all my post.
Then you all won't able to be know how am I.
But I unlocked it . :")
酸♥ 甜♥ 苦♥ 辣♥
别那么沮丧了. 加油 !
知道你对她用情很深 .
但每件事的结果都未必是自己想要的 .
都过去了 . 下次我有去Kuantan的 ><
meet u at there .
Jus happy in u life :)
U only can do it u self .
Jian Khai jia you ba dude :D
很快就会过去了.. Cheer up ♥
别那么沮丧了. 加油 !
知道你对她用情很深 .
但每件事的结果都未必是自己想要的 .
都过去了 . 下次我有去Kuantan的 ><
meet u at there .
Jus happy in u life :)
U only can do it u self .
Jian Khai jia you ba dude :D
很快就会过去了.. Cheer up ♥
谢了<3
虽然你认识我不是很久，不过我们已经成为兄弟了．:D
我讨厌我.
This status , means that why I don't want to text you everytime.
Sometimes I never know that what you're thinking about me.
I should wait you until you're up for bed.
But I don't .
I should accompany you , when you're avaliable.
Luckily I have you.
Buddy.
Buddy.
Kt Yeo ! You're that person , my buddy <3
我很累,可是我不敢闭上我的眼睛.
I scare I can't control my tears to drop once again. ='(
平时搂在一起的朋友，一瞬间真的可以变陌生人啊．
人真的很奇妙.
人真的很奇妙.
Ks Teo ,
Previously ,
When I saw you ,
I will and hi and chill out with you.
You're a funny guy.
I am totally enjoyed when you're making jokes and make my laugh out my ass.
But now ,
I don't know why .
When I see you ,
I pretend like nothing.
But you seems like keep yourself silence from me.
我做到了. =]
This status means that the first day ,
That I can say hi to you ,
Pretend like nothing .
Actually at that time,
I want to stop my foots ,
Go in front you ,
And ask you the question at above that I wanted to ask for so long.
But the way , when you met me .
I know you're so scare ,
You don't know how to face me so well.
That's why I move myself first,
To be the first to start our new conversation although its not same like before.
I know you are afraid of me.
Don't worry , I will be the one ,
To make you won't afraid of me any more.
我其实,不喜欢伪装.
Actually I don't like to act like nothing.
When I am sad , I don't like to laugh.
When I am happy , of course I won't act like moody .
Just be myself when , where , what situation you are.
他啥的. 我为什么会变成这样?!
At that time , I was mad.
Hit the keyboard , hit the wall.
哭过了，就算了吧．='D
After I cried ,
Everything will be fine.
我最软弱的地方是舍不得. :')
祝你幸福.
第7天.
我又想你了.. =(
我又想你了.. =(
拒绝 , 我等. :) ♥
Although I was fail ,
But I will wait .
好久不谈, 最近还好吗? :')
Has been long time didn't text you .
How are you ?
I am so freaking miss you seriously.
第21天.
你习惯了吗? :')
你习惯了吗? :')
21th day , Is that everything same as like normal ?
Without me ? :)
Same sentences ,
I am so freaking miss you.
难得你是让我放下她的一位.
我舍不得离开. =') ♥
我舍不得离开. =') ♥
Actually you're the one who made me put her down.
Thank you .
But ,
Sorry I could't leave you alone.
Sorry I can't do that.
多想藏着你的好 , 只有我看得到. ♥
I wanted to keep all your personality ,
Only for me to find it out.
But that person wasn't me.
July 16 at 9:36pm
我知道你我都没有错.
我知道我和我自己的决斗.
我输了.
你知道为什么吗?
我太*迷失*你了.
Flash Back.
这是我最后一次，
写着．
敏<3
Saturday, June 25, 2011
我放手, 假洒脱 ,谁知道我有多么的不舍。='D
24/6
Yesterday is the hardest day that I passed. ='D
Has been long time since our last conversation was on 2weeks ago.
I don't text you.
I know you're tired to reply my messages.
Sometimes, I felt that something dfferent on her.
I don't know whatcha happened.
Maybe she was in bad mood.
Since yesterday was happened.
Only I know everything.
Kinda cute I am. ='D
Yesterday, I talked with PY, she told me everything.
PY, since you asked me this question.
Do you know why mein threat you so cold le?
Since this question that you asked.
You have shown all the answer.
I was scare on that time.
My 6th sense told me everything.
Feeling could't escape anywhere.
Of couse not you.
Who told me that person that she likes.
Remember you're right. I am glad that she have a true friend like you.
Afterward. I was pretend like steady, sporty.
Accept everything.
Seriously, my heart was broken.
I could't do anyyhing.
I just logged in on facebook.
Put a ='D.
Pretend like I am fine.
In the middle of hardship, definitely no one was my beside.
This must be kinda joke yeah. ='D
I just...
What do we call that..
Being alone.
When I am totally afraid.
In that second.
I felt myself like nothing.
Let it go.
After that, DT was on.
I think he is a suitable person that i can release my heart feeling, heart talk.
Yeah I told him.
Yeah! I failed ='D
Read clearly.
He said he knew everything earlier than me..
What the f#ck?
How did he know?!
Afterward he told me something I don't know ='D
Watch out this conversation.
I know everything earlier than you.
She dosen't accept him yet.
He mentioned his name.
I said.
Aww finally i got the answer.
OMG?!?!?!
I thought you were supposed to know!?
He replied.
I am just freaking upset about that.
Since they starts to hide that secret.
I am just like a dumb who being played.
I am soo mad.
Why would they do so.
Do you know.
Getting longer, getting more hurt?
He dont know what I am thinking at that time.
You know what I did?
='D
I just freakin punch up on the wall.
Kinda pain ya ='D
Of course it just piece of cake. :')
Afterward, I went to cybercafe.
I was playing DotA on that time.
I am just thinking about you.
I could't concentrate on that.
Keep dying.
Keep feeding.
I cant stand it and I punched up again on the keyboard.
Damn it!!!!!!!
WHY I AM THE WHO LAST MINUTE ONLY KNEW THIS THING?
HOLY WHY?
I didn't take dinner on that night.
My brother went to Kuantan.
I am alone in my house.
Lookin on my laptop.
Keep lookin on facebook.
Lookin on her profile.
Maybe this is part of my life.
Seriously I will go and have a look on your profile everything.
Something like 11pm.
JJ was on.
I told everything to him.
He is the only one who give me cheers when i need it.
He asked me to forget her.
I can answer you right now.
JJ, seriously I can let her go.
But only in reality, but not in my heart.
But.. I am kinda angry.
Why would you dont tell me everything?
You're supposed to know the most?
='D
I cant stand it anymore.
I was up for bed.
Seriously.
I cried.
Has been a long time since my last cried.
Something like 3years ago.
I don't know why.
I cried hardly.
I can't sleep well.
I didn't sleep for the whole night.
I was playing online game for whole night.
That's all night i being yesterday.
How about today?
You think today its a sunny day right?
For me it is dark.
Afternoon, she text me and told me everything.
Thank you for doing so.
I am still pretend like nothing. ='D
Sorry that I loved you.
Let's skip to the evening.
KL messaged me.
She asked how I am.
I answered I am fine of course.
I dosen't want to let she know what's going on because I don't want to let her know anything about me.
I was hearing Jay's song.
Luckily his song accompany me.
On my bed.
My tears dropped again.
I cried. ='D
Again.
Sorry for that I cant control that thing.
Let it go.
Hopes that person will threat her better than like me.
But the way.
Sorry Mein.
I loved you. ='D
Yesterday is the hardest day that I passed. ='D
Has been long time since our last conversation was on 2weeks ago.
I don't text you.
I know you're tired to reply my messages.
Sometimes, I felt that something dfferent on her.
I don't know whatcha happened.
Maybe she was in bad mood.
Since yesterday was happened.
Only I know everything.
Kinda cute I am. ='D
Yesterday, I talked with PY, she told me everything.
PY, since you asked me this question.
Do you know why mein threat you so cold le?
Since this question that you asked.
You have shown all the answer.
I was scare on that time.
My 6th sense told me everything.
Feeling could't escape anywhere.
Of couse not you.
Who told me that person that she likes.
Remember you're right. I am glad that she have a true friend like you.
Afterward. I was pretend like steady, sporty.
Accept everything.
Seriously, my heart was broken.
I could't do anyyhing.
I just logged in on facebook.
Put a ='D.
Pretend like I am fine.
In the middle of hardship, definitely no one was my beside.
This must be kinda joke yeah. ='D
I just...
What do we call that..
Being alone.
When I am totally afraid.
In that second.
I felt myself like nothing.
Let it go.
After that, DT was on.
I think he is a suitable person that i can release my heart feeling, heart talk.
Yeah I told him.
Yeah! I failed ='D
Read clearly.
He said he knew everything earlier than me..
What the f#ck?
How did he know?!
Afterward he told me something I don't know ='D
Watch out this conversation.
I know everything earlier than you.
She dosen't accept him yet.
He mentioned his name.
I said.
Aww finally i got the answer.
OMG?!?!?!
I thought you were supposed to know!?
He replied.
I am just freaking upset about that.
Since they starts to hide that secret.
I am just like a dumb who being played.
I am soo mad.
Why would they do so.
Do you know.
Getting longer, getting more hurt?
He dont know what I am thinking at that time.
You know what I did?
='D
I just freakin punch up on the wall.
Kinda pain ya ='D
Of course it just piece of cake. :')
Afterward, I went to cybercafe.
I was playing DotA on that time.
I am just thinking about you.
I could't concentrate on that.
Keep dying.
Keep feeding.
I cant stand it and I punched up again on the keyboard.
Damn it!!!!!!!
WHY I AM THE WHO LAST MINUTE ONLY KNEW THIS THING?
HOLY WHY?
I didn't take dinner on that night.
My brother went to Kuantan.
I am alone in my house.
Lookin on my laptop.
Keep lookin on facebook.
Lookin on her profile.
Maybe this is part of my life.
Seriously I will go and have a look on your profile everything.
Something like 11pm.
JJ was on.
I told everything to him.
He is the only one who give me cheers when i need it.
He asked me to forget her.
I can answer you right now.
JJ, seriously I can let her go.
But only in reality, but not in my heart.
But.. I am kinda angry.
Why would you dont tell me everything?
You're supposed to know the most?
='D
I cant stand it anymore.
I was up for bed.
Seriously.
I cried.
Has been a long time since my last cried.
Something like 3years ago.
I don't know why.
I cried hardly.
I can't sleep well.
I didn't sleep for the whole night.
I was playing online game for whole night.
That's all night i being yesterday.
How about today?
You think today its a sunny day right?
For me it is dark.
Afternoon, she text me and told me everything.
Thank you for doing so.
I am still pretend like nothing. ='D
Sorry that I loved you.
Let's skip to the evening.
KL messaged me.
She asked how I am.
I answered I am fine of course.
I dosen't want to let she know what's going on because I don't want to let her know anything about me.
I was hearing Jay's song.
Luckily his song accompany me.
On my bed.
My tears dropped again.
I cried. ='D
Again.
Sorry for that I cant control that thing.
Let it go.
Hopes that person will threat her better than like me.
But the way.
Sorry Mein.
I loved you. ='D
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Friday, June 24, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Memories in school... <3
Actually I dont know why, I dont know when, I dont know how, I dont know where.
What I know is I am truely fall for you.
In school, I am secretly watch on you, cares, observe seriously on your everything.
I don't know whether you knew it or no. xD
I am predict that you are already knew that of course.
If you dont know.
That's good!
Give me more chance to look on you. XD
After the class dismissed, it was like 1.30pm, bus ran away and I could't return home earlier.
After that, I saw her.
Waiting someone to pick her up.
Ferry to home.
She is standing alone there.
I am infront of her.
I said hello to her, and she replied me the same thing with a unique smile.
This kind of smiling is defintely cannot be describe by a word or a sentences.
For me, its unique.
I LOVE her smile.
Besides that, you're a perfect girl for me compare with other girls.
I dont know why.
Maybe I love you..
Even though you are doing a bad thing.
I will think that it is good thing.
Seriously, you are pretty, brilliant, soft-speaking, and a good personal artitude.
Of course, these are not the factors that I love you..
I remembered when the first time I am talking to you.
In my heart, already have a unique feel.
I am not sure what feel is this.
Something like neutralisation. :)
Since the twice times I talked to you.
I am sure that I am fall on you.
I gotcha your phone number from your buddies! xD
Ar that time, seriously I am freaking excited.
I cant describe what feel it is.
Totally happy and I would laugh even I am in dream. xD
我对敏曰,绝非儿戏。
You still remember this quote?
Untill now, this is my main concern.
Nothing changed.
I really dont know why.
I just know.
I CANT FORGET YOUR SMILE!
I will appreciate it.
If you really think that I am not suitable for you.
Nevermind.
I will wait until you needs me.
Remember.
When you are alone.
Look behind.
I am the one who always at your behind and support and protect you.
Remember.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Your regards,
JianKhai.
What I know is I am truely fall for you.
In school, I am secretly watch on you, cares, observe seriously on your everything.
I don't know whether you knew it or no. xD
I am predict that you are already knew that of course.
If you dont know.
That's good!
Give me more chance to look on you. XD
After the class dismissed, it was like 1.30pm, bus ran away and I could't return home earlier.
After that, I saw her.
Waiting someone to pick her up.
Ferry to home.
She is standing alone there.
I am infront of her.
I said hello to her, and she replied me the same thing with a unique smile.
This kind of smiling is defintely cannot be describe by a word or a sentences.
For me, its unique.
I LOVE her smile.
Besides that, you're a perfect girl for me compare with other girls.
I dont know why.
Maybe I love you..
Even though you are doing a bad thing.
I will think that it is good thing.
Seriously, you are pretty, brilliant, soft-speaking, and a good personal artitude.
Of course, these are not the factors that I love you..
I remembered when the first time I am talking to you.
In my heart, already have a unique feel.
I am not sure what feel is this.
Something like neutralisation. :)
Since the twice times I talked to you.
I am sure that I am fall on you.
I gotcha your phone number from your buddies! xD
Ar that time, seriously I am freaking excited.
I cant describe what feel it is.
Totally happy and I would laugh even I am in dream. xD
我对敏曰,绝非儿戏。
You still remember this quote?
Untill now, this is my main concern.
Nothing changed.
I really dont know why.
I just know.
I CANT FORGET YOUR SMILE!
I will appreciate it.
If you really think that I am not suitable for you.
Nevermind.
I will wait until you needs me.
Remember.
When you are alone.
Look behind.
I am the one who always at your behind and support and protect you.
Remember.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
Your regards,
JianKhai.
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Friday, April 22, 2011
Getting further and further with them.
How long time I didn't go school already.
Everyone is still fine ?
Everything going well right ? :D
Now is Saturday , 1.53PM.
I just back from Stadium by motor. =)
Alright , I don't want to say those nonsense .
Recently I am interested to have a type .
Everyday , I facing computer .
Gaming , Communication , Technology , News Live Feed.
But the way , I don't want how to release my mood .
In a flash of "terror" I opened my mind.
I found www.blogger.com .
I reed all my old post .
Realize that life is really not so easy .
In future , In 2020 , maybe coming soon .
I still not yet found my aim/target.
That's bad right ?
I think so . =]
This 2 days , I was absent .
My phone .
What status ?
Just silence , not vibrate .
No messages .
But , I feel nothing.
Maybe its my habit .
Actually I don't know why I am using hand phone .
Only online by board band ?
And text with her.
That's all ?
LAUGH OUT LOUD .
I don't know why I could think like that .
Seriously , I don't like .
Others think that my heart talk , is a joke .
Or comedy. =]
I really don't know .
Who should I talk to .
Family ?
NO.
Buddy ?
Aiya , suan le bah.
Gang ?
What for ?
Classmates ?
Today many homework ah ! -_-
Let it go is the best choice and good solution for me .
Thank you for caring me .
I know you're disappointed on me .
I only needs your one sentence.
You OK ma ?
I am appreciated it . <3
I don't know whether what for you care me.
But anyway .
Thanks , I am nothing. <3
Sunday, April 17, 2011
The ever meaningless week that I faced
Last week , it was a terrible week.
But I don't know why.
Is that only my problem ?
Last Monday ,
I was present in school , but I went home by 12.30 or something because I was so bored and felt like wanna return home quickly .
Mostly of the time , I was facing laptop/ computer.
I don't know why I won't get bored .
Maybe its only the way to release stress.
And night , I missed tuition class.
That's Monday.
Let's talk about Tuesday .
Last Tuesday,
Hm.. such a same thing that I met.
At school ,
The only thing I could do.
Sleeping , Reading , Doing homework.
At home ,
Facing laptop , or went to cybercafe.
At night ,
I went pasar malam with Charles and Lippop .
Wednesday ,
That was the worst day that I passed.
I gave a excuse that I was not feeling well and I missed the school class .
You know where I am at that day ?
I was in cybercafe from morning 6am till 1pm.
I felt sorry much .
I don't know why I just don't like to go school.
Maybe it just waste time ?
Or bored ?
Meaningless?
I don't know , maybe I need talk.
Thursday ,
I went to go school and act like nothing .
In school ,
Nobody talked to me .
I just do my homework as well as I can.
Mr.See's homework.
He is the only one who make me feel like respectful to him.
He is a good teacher .
Well , sometimes he gave too many homework .
In school ,
Even though somebody didn't know I was absent on Wednesday .
From that question.
Proved , I am nothing.
Friday ,
I chose to miss class again.
I don't like to do that but its always better than in school.
Same thing with Wednesday .
Nothing different .
Faced to the laptop .
Saturday ,
Maybe it was a great day for me.
I went to Kuantan River for fishing with Lippop and Boon.
We went to Kuantan River by Lippop's motor .
I ferried him to go sungai isap and he bring me to Kuantan River .
That was a awesome day even though me and lippop didn't get anything .
But we are still happy . =D
Meanwhile , Boon caught a very cute fish ! xD
After we went for fishing .
Only things that I could do is .
Gaming.
Sunday ,
In the morning ,
I missed physics tuition class again.
Whole day , I was in cybercafe .
I don't know why I just don't like physics.
Feel like physics is annoying !
Well , I need to study too.
From now .
I think I have about 2 weeks didn't chat with you .
Well , doesn't mean i forgot you.
Just I don't have the mood.
Well , that's all for my week.
Remember , I am nothing .
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