我放手, 假洒脱 ,谁知道我有多么的不舍。='D

24/6
Yesterday is the hardest day that I passed. ='D
Has been long time since our last conversation was on 2weeks ago.
I don't text you.
I know you're tired to reply my messages.
Sometimes, I felt that something dfferent on her.
I don't know whatcha happened.
Maybe she was in bad mood.
Since yesterday was happened.
Only I know everything.

Kinda cute I am. ='D
Yesterday, I talked with PY, she told me everything.
PY, since you asked me this question.
Do you know why mein threat you so cold le?
Since this question that you asked.
You have shown all the answer.
I was scare on that time.
My 6th sense told me everything.
Feeling could't escape anywhere.
Of couse not you.
Who told me that person that she likes.

Remember you're right. I am glad that she have a true friend like you.

Afterward. I was pretend like steady, sporty.
Accept everything.
Seriously, my heart was broken.
I could't do anyyhing.

I just logged in on facebook.
Put a ='D.
Pretend like I am fine.

In the middle of hardship, definitely no one was my beside.
This must be kinda joke yeah. ='D
I just...
What do we call that..
Being alone.
When I am totally afraid.
In that second.
I felt myself like nothing.
Let it go.
After that, DT was on.
I think he is a suitable person that i can release my heart feeling, heart talk.
Yeah I told him.
Yeah! I failed ='D

Read clearly.
He said he knew everything earlier than me..
What the f#ck?
How did he know?!
Afterward he told me something I don't know ='D
Watch out this conversation.
I know everything earlier than you.
She dosen't accept him yet.
He mentioned his name.

I said.
Aww finally i got the answer.

OMG?!?!?!
I thought you were supposed to know!?
He replied.

I am just freaking upset about that.
Since they starts to hide that secret.
I am just like a dumb who being played.
I am soo mad.
Why would they do so.
Do you know.
Getting longer, getting more hurt?
He dont know what I am thinking at that time.

You know what I did?
='D
I just freakin punch up on the wall.
Kinda pain ya ='D
Of course it just piece of cake. :')

Afterward, I went to cybercafe.
I was playing DotA on that time.
I am just thinking about you.
I could't concentrate on that.
Keep dying.
Keep feeding.
I cant stand it and I punched up again on the keyboard.
Damn it!!!!!!!
WHY I AM THE WHO LAST MINUTE ONLY KNEW THIS THING?
HOLY WHY?

I didn't take dinner on that night.
My brother went to Kuantan.
I am alone in my house.
Lookin on my laptop.

Keep lookin on facebook.
Lookin on her profile.
Maybe this is part of my life.
Seriously I will go and have a look on your profile everything.

Something like 11pm.
JJ was on.
I told everything to him.
He is the only one who give me cheers when i need it.
He asked me to forget her.

I can answer you right now.
JJ, seriously I can let her go.
But only in reality, but not in my heart.
But.. I am kinda angry.
Why would you dont tell me everything?
You're supposed to know the most?
='D

I cant stand it anymore.
I was up for bed.
Seriously.
I cried.
Has been a long time since my last cried.
Something like 3years ago.
I don't know why.
I cried hardly.
I can't sleep well.
I didn't sleep for the whole night.
I was playing online game for whole night.
That's all night i being yesterday.

How about today?
You think today its a sunny day right?
For me it is dark.
Afternoon, she text me and told me everything.
Thank you for doing so.
I am still pretend like nothing. ='D
Sorry that I loved you.

Let's skip to the evening.
KL messaged me.
She asked how I am.
I answered I am fine of course.
I dosen't want to let she know what's going on because I don't want to let her know anything about me.

I was hearing Jay's song.
Luckily his song accompany me.
On my bed.
My tears dropped again.

I cried. ='D
Again.
Sorry for that I cant control that thing.

Let it go.
Hopes that person will threat her better than like me.
But the way.

Sorry Mein.
I loved you. ='D

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